labil love story :D

Hmmm.. my love story with Him started when I was in Junior High School. How come it be? When I was in elementary school I was (not wanna be arrogant yea ^^) a smart student. I always be a candidate if there were a competition. But then, suddenly when the Fire Country attacked, everything change.. buahahaha

My junior high school was the best school in my city, my class also the best (in Indonesia they say it “Kelas Unggulan”). So you can guess it that every student in my class is the best student. It made have a tight competition. I never became the best 5 in my class, this made me very sad. But I never give up, I hope that someday I can be the number one. I always try and try and try, beside that I give all my dreams to God, I depended on Him. I prayed every night, I read bible everyday, I praised him everytime, I went to the church, and be a nice girl. I couldn’t get the best rank in my class, but praised to God, finally my score can be the best score for the National Exam, not only in my school, but also in my city. Three years walked with Him is the most beautiful moment in my life. As Psalms 126 : 5 said “They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.”

Then in the Senior High School, everything’s good. I always had a good score in class n joined a lot of champion and also become the winner (some of them only.. ahahahha). Everything fine till the graduated time. I couldn’t passed my favorite college that I’d dreams for so many time. I trapped in the college that I’ve never know. I were very dissapointed to God, everything seems cold, I even didn’t have a spirit to live.

But then, I thank to God that he gave me a good partnership here. I can learn so many things about Him through daily devotion, bible study, and also small group. First year here, I have a good relation with God. I walked with Him everyday, praised Him, prayed to Him, talked to Him, and do everything with Him. We’re such a romantic couple, always together everywhere and everytime (suit... suit.. :D ).

Moreover I have so many friends that always support me when I almost fall and also a good enviroment. But then in second years, when everything seems blurred and unclear about my future after graduated because of so many hazy rule, I felt very sad. It affected my spirit  to have a good relation with Him, my study, my social intercourse, even my whole live (lebayyyyy).

Thanks to God, I have my small group, I have my friends, my parents and also my boyfriends (xixixixi) that always support me, that always remind me. I believe everything will be alright with God, no matter what will happen I will trust and obey Him. And I will wait upon the LORD, that hideth his face from the house of Jacob, and I will look for Him (Yes 8:17). Because Yes 40:31 said “But those who trust the LORD will find new strength. They will be strong like eagles soaring upward on wings; they will walk and run without getting tired”.

Yeah, my love story such a labil story. Fall and then rise, fall again and rise again, fall and rise, fall and rise untill I’m tired. Although I have read all the bible or I have finished two books for bible study or I have a good small group or I am a servant of God or I am a princess of God or X or Y or Z etc. Thats not guarantee that I will always have an easy live or having a dicipline relation with Him. I am still a sinner.  But Philip 3:12 said “I have not yet reached my goal, and I am not perfect. But Christ has taken hold of me. So I keep on running and struggling to take hold of the prize”

Yeah, So I will  keep on running and struggling to take hold of the prize q(^.^)p

by @littlewinda

Boru Panggoaran

Ho do borukku
Tappuk ni ate atekki
Ho do borukku
Tappuk ni pusu pusukki,

Burju burju maho Namarsikkola i
Asa dapot ho, Na sinitta ni rohami

Molo matua sogot ahu
Ho do manarihon ahu
Molo matinggang ahu inang
Ho do namanogu-nogu ahu

Reff :
Ai ho do borukku,
boru panggoaranhi
Sai sahat ma da na di rohami.

Ai ho do borukku,
boru panggoaranhi
Sai sahatma da na di rohami

Artinya :
KamuLah putriku
Dambaan hatiku
Kamulah putriku
Yang sangat saya dambakan

Baik-baikLah kamu belajar
Supaya kamu dapat mencapai cita-citamu

Kalau saya nanti sudah tua
Kamu yang menanggung / memperhatikan saya
Kalau terjatuh saya nak
Kamu yang mengangkat saya

Reff :
KamuLah putriku
Putri anak pertamaku
Mudah-mudahan tercapai cita-citamu

KamuLah putriku
Putri anak pertamaku
Mudah-mudahan tercapai cita-citamu

wuahhhh,, pengen nangis dengerin lagunya ( setelah tahu artinya c,, hehehe).. T.T
ni lagu pertama kali aku dngar dan langsung nyanyiin tanpa tahu artinya. Ceritanya kalo kuliah pengantar perpajakan, kelasku gak boleh telat. Klo telat mesti nyanyi dulu baru masuk.
Hari itu kuliah pajak dimulai jam dua, sedang sebelumny kami da kuliah lain, lupa apa, kayakny c (kayakny ni) PPN = Pelaksanaan Pendapatan Negara, itu tuh selesainy jam satu. Jadi b'tiga sanchez, tuelfa n winda nongkronk k kosan winda.. hahaha
Taulah siang-siang abis maksi, panas lagi, ngantuk lagi, malas lagi, dan biasaLah cwe klo dah ngumpul, keasyikan cerita N finally telatlah kami... hahahaha

Masuk ke kelas alhasil telat,, eh telatny cuman bertiga doank jg.. hahaha dasar si inang-inang :D
Disuruh nanyi tapi tanggung plajaran dah mulai, jdiny d jam terakhir aja nanyinya.
Si eva dan sanchez yg lebih ngerti soal batak, advice nyanyi lagu boru panggoaran, y aq sih boleh2 aja, asl pake teks, hehehe.
Kebetulan kami berempat ama kristhie tuh boru panggoaran, sbnarnya gak juga si, si efa maksa jdi boru panggoaran jg.. hahahaha *ok, anggap aja dia jg boru panggoaran, drpd nangis inang itu,, hehehe

Ywdah nanyiLah kami, aku y asal buka mulut aj, wong orang baru denger laguny.
Tapi pas udah selesai, si sanchez jelasin arti lagunya secara umum, wuah terharu aku, pngen nangis.. T.T

Hari ini, siang ini, jam ini, menit ini, detik ini, aq gak da kerjaan.. hahhaa
alhasil kerjaanny gak da, eh aku ingat lagu ini, udah donlot, tapi gmn y gak ngerti lirikny.. akhirny tanya deh ama bapak,
DijelasinLah ama bapak,, eh pengen nangis dia selesai ngejelasin katanya.. Yah aq di tinggalin bentar, abis itu bapak balik, tapi keliatan koq klo dia bneran abis nangis..
gak pernah liat bapak nangis, beneran (td juga gak, cman bekasny doak, hehehe),,, klo liat marah ,always.. hehehe
Kata bapak, gak bisa gak nangis orang tua klo nyanyi lagu itu..

Tapi emankLah laguny bagus banget,, koq bs pulak y baru aku denger skr?? hehehe,, emank cocok kali di bilang dalle aku.. hahaha
bout dalle, aku gk sedih2 amat si dibilang gitu, secara jujur ya, aq g begtu suka orang batak walaupun aku orang batak.. heheh *parah ni..
Tapi kadang2 jdi sedih juga si klo ada yg ngejek dalle,, y maklumLah klo aku g ngerti apa2, orang aku besarny dimana, mamaku jg bukan orang batak, bapak batak si batak, tapi dah besar si antara orang2 jawa dan melayu, bukan di daerah yg dominan orang batak.
whateverLah kalian mo bilang aku dalle ato gak,, whateverLah aku mo suka ato gak suka ama orang batak,, I'm bataknese..
Proud to be batak, n proud to be boru panggoaran. :D

My 19th b'day :D

wohohoho,, aq share crita ultah kemaren ea.. hahaha sbnerny d FB dah ada,, tp krn lg ada something,, kekny pengen share di blog jg deh.. hohoho ni crita ultah k 19 aq,, hope u r enjoy it... :D

Hmm.. hari ini bner2 berjuta rasa buat Winda.. gmn y ngungkapinny?? Gak bisa d ungkapkn dgn kata2 deh Winda.. 9 Juni 2011,, Hari natal.. Merry Xmas.. Yeee… Winda lahir d dunia.. wkwkwk *apa sech??

Winda terharu banget,, 00.00 abis saat teduh, Winda dah mo bobo, pikiran udah d alam mimpi, eh gak tauny tiba2 ada yg bangunin.. Surprised banget pas ibanku Faya, Opungku Mansel, Opung Kuadratq c Mike, n calon selingkuhanq (hehe, peace Efa ^^v) Juni n Mei dateng.. Gak nyangka mreka mau ikh begadang ampe jam 12 mlem, trus dteng k kosan Winda, Ngumpulin koin buat Winda heehehe,, beliin kue buat Winda,, trus mau ngarayain ultah Winda n doain Winda.. terharu ikh.. abis itu mau pulak mreka mngangkat Winda menjadi BenLau (bendahara galau) di PSG (Persatuan STAN galau) hahahaha… makasih ea.. really really surprised.. Gak kebayang.. Makasih ea :D

Makasih juga buat KKP COGS ( Cost of Good Sold *akuntansi bnget.. hahahha,, gak dink.. Cause Of God Salvation :D) gak kbayangg kalian mo bangun pagi2, ngasi surprised k Winda.. mksih doany, kadony, kueny, n selama ni udah sering denger curhatan Winda,, sm2 bertumbuh, sm2 belajar Firman, sm2 Pendalaman Alkitab.. thankeu so much PKK k’ agnes yg super duper hebat.. buat SKKq yg pling luthu Mei, buat SKK pling cantik Dian, n best of d best SKK teladan Mega.. hahahaha

Ucapin maksih gak y?? hahahahha Yo wessLah… mksih buat teman2 skeLas 1J Kebendaharaan Negara yg gilak abis.. Sumpah bener2 gila euy kalian.. makasih ea udah ngumpulin tanda tanganny buat Winda.. Makasih udah kerja sama ama dosen manajemen tercinta (Pak Rame) buat ngerjain Winda, n smpe bwa2 ke secretariat.. wkwkwk tp sayng.. kalian gak berhasil :P Hahaha, sebenernya pas Pak Rameny bilang kertas ujian Winda gak ada tuh Winda dah feeling aja, pasti nih d kerjain.. mkanya Winda ktawa2 aja ma klian.. hahahha, tapi ampe akhir bpakny ngejelasin jwban uts, Winda sbnerny deg-degan jg c, mna kertas ujian Winda, gak mau akh ujian ulang… Trus pas klian ngumpulin kertas ujian lgi, Winda tuh mnyusup d antara kalian n Winda liat koq kertas ujian Winda ada.. hahahaha :P gak berhasil kalian.. trus pas Pak Rameny bilang kertas ujian Winda bermsalah n Winda d sruh menghadap secretariat krn ada mslah, d stu tuh Winda malah makin ketawa terbahak2,, ya eaLah gak mungkin kalian mo berani ampe k sekre.. wkwkwk,, makany pas kelas selesai Winda malah mo langsung plang k kosan.. Trus pas yg si Rizal bilang bneran d sruh k sekre tuh sbnernya Winda deg-degan jg, tapi Winda mikir, paling cman ampe gedungny doank, trus abis it kluar,, mkany Winda msih ttp ktawa2.. hahahhaa

Tapi rupany beneran, Winda msuk k sekre *akhirnya Winda msuk sekre jg.. hahhahaha Di dalam tuh pkir Winda y udah cman duduk doank, abis it kluar, rpany beneran mnghadap ama bid.akuntan=bng Ardes :D Pas d wawancarai ama bng Ardes tuh, y Winda santai aja sih, malah Winda ktawa2.. hahahha Katanya pas ujian Winda tuh bawa catatan,, y eaLah Winda ktawa2, wong orang gak mungkinLah.. pengawasny aja duduk belakang Winda, lagian sapa juga yg bego mempertaruhkan ksempatan kuliah d STAN hanya karena nyontek,, mending nilai rendah drpd harus nyontek,, DO boo,, Trus yg buat Winda mkin ktawa krn bng Ardesny gak mo nunjukin alat buktiny,, gak mgkin donk nunjuk org bersalah tnp alat bukti.. hahahha,, trus ama wkt bng Ardesny bilang mo d bawa ampe k ibu Lies (kpala bdang Pendidikan Akuntan) ma Pak Direktur,, hahahha,, ywdahLah Winda pikir tuh gak mungkin.. hahaha.. klo pun iya,, sok atuh Winda emank kpingin bnget bisa ngobrol2 ama Pak Kusmanadji tuh.. hehehe ^^v Tapi pas di tegur ama bapak ***** (Winda lupa dah spa namany.. hahaha,, maklumLah udah tua, daya ingat menurun.. wkwkwk alibi,, emank bermasalah ama short memory.. :D), Winda jd agak takut euy… Katany Winda gak sopan, masa d Tanya baik2 malah ketawa2?? T.T Abisny mo gmn lgi y Pak?? Winda tuh gak bs d boongi, Winda bisa tau org tuh dr raut wjahny.. Tapi sumpah bapak itu emank AGAK tegas gtu,, mkany Winda jdi takut… tapi ttp aja c Winda sugesti dri biar gak nangis (kata seseorang gak boleh nangis, gak boleh cengeng.. hehehe :D), jdiny makany Winda ketwa2 n snyum2 aja.. hahhaha

Tapi sempat gak bisa nahan juga c pas bng Ardesny bilang, kekny perlu d bwa k psikologi deh, d tanya koq snyum2 n ktawa2 aja?? Ckckck.. #saat itu beneran Winda mikir, kekny Winda udah beneran gila deh ni.. ktwa2 aja akibat gak bisa nangis,, tp nangis jg gak mgkinLah.. T.T Yaudah, saat2 terakhir Winda d sruh isi berita acara aja,, awalny Winda kekeuh gak mau ngisi berita acarany,, abisny berita acarany bilang “saya yg bertanda tangan d bwah ini menyatakan telah melanggar ketentuan ketertiban PMK bla bla bla bla” ya eyaLah, Winda gak mau ngisi, wong Winda gak slah apa2 koq,, tapi karena Winda udah pada kasihan liat muka temen2 yg pada setia menunggu Winda, palgi ketua kelasq tercinta mbak chay2 n mantan ktua klasq tersyang mas rizal n pacarq Tuelfa n mantanq Sanchez yg udah kesel liat Winda y Winda isi aja.. Atas rayuan n saran dari mantanq Sanchez, di sruh aja ngasih kata tidak dpan melanggar itu.. hahhahaha,, trus kesalahanny Winda isi aja tdak tahu,, hahahha #Winda gilak.. wkwwk. Trus yg bikin kwan b’4 tuh mkin stress, Winda nyempetin diri lagi fto2 d ruang sekreny n ma berita acarany.. hahahha #bener2 gilak Winda.. Pas berita acara dah d ambil ma bng Ardes, Winda d ksi surat gtu.. N udah q tebak, isiny selamat ulang tahun.. \(^.^)/ hahahha,, mkin ktawakLah Winda.. terharu bnget euy,, d ksi permen.. :D

Buat org2 d sekre,,, maaf y klo Winda gak sopan, #n emank bner2 udah gak sopan bnget ama klian.. ^^v, abisny gmn y,, *masih labil.. hehehe.. maaf, msih berusha mnikmati saat2 trakhir kpala 1,, taon dpan dah kpala 2.. T.T hehehhe,, maaf pling bsar trutma ma bng Ardes, maaf dah gak sopan.  Buat temen – Temen jg, maaf y klo Winda bkin kesel, pdahal pasti ssah bnget tuh ngomong ama org sekre, ngomong ama dosen aja susah.. kalian ngumpulin tanda tngan buat Winda aja, Winda dah seneng bnget.. Winda terharu euy.. *.*

Maaf, bukan Winda gak sensitive atao gmn,, tp gmn y?? Winda tuh orgny gk bs d boongin.. walaupun Winda cpet cengeng, tapi Winda tau koq muka yg beneran serius ma yg gak.. hahaha,, maksih ea.. tp Winda terharu bnget dg usaha temen2 ngerjain Winda trutama bu ktua klas n mantan pak ktua klasq.. *.*,, Winda sayang kalian smua.. maksih hakim. Anung, arda, azim, billy, chay2, dilly, dina, dita, Erwin, father, firman, fitra, ganang, ihsan, hery, sontol, igun, ikhwan, intan, monic, bagus, salim, nunik, rizal, salsa, sanchez, syahidan, teguh, tuelfa, usman, wahid n yunus… :D

Nah,, tp problemny tuh HPq ilang.. hayoo,, siapa yg tanggung jawab?? pas abis dari sekre udah gak tau pda kmana org2 klas, gak tau nyari kmna,, eh d jlan ktemu yunus, yunus aja q kirain tersngka utama.. ampe hpny q sita ganti hpq.. wkwk, sorry y nus.. Tapi sumpah, Winda agak gak konsen ibdahny mikirin HP yg ilang..  Abisny blom telpon2an ama mama papa c.. huhu

Selesai kbaktian kamis, ywdah Winda balik kosan.. eh,, bener2 terharu euy ama temen2 kosan.. Winda terharu bnget, kmar Winda d hiasi ucapan happy b’day ama mreka,, kreatif bnget,, kadonya luthu,, ucpanny jg, fto2ny jg.. akh.. Winda syang kalian.. :* Gak kebayang euy, kalian nungguin Winda dari jam 3 siang mpe jam 8 mlam.. jagain pintu mnatau Winda pulang,, psti cape’ bnget.. mkasih ea tmen2q tersyang,, :’) maaf ea, klo Winda jrang d kosan, jrang ngabisin waktu ama klian,, luph u mita, ike n devi.. :D

Abis itu Winda gk tw lg mo nyari HP k mna, rncna Winda mo ngunjungin kosan anak klas stu2.. eh, pas mo pergi d jmput bng Frans, ktny mesti rpat.. duh, gmn ni, Winda bingung, alnya msih kpikran HP yg ilang.. Males c sbnerny ikut rapat,, mlah Winda mikir gak perhatian bnget c mreka, wong org lg ilang HP d sruh ikut rapt.. T.T Tapi pas d tengah rpat,, bener2 terharu ama anak2 pemerhati, d ksi surprised rupanya.. akh,, mksih mo ngerayain ultah Winda bareng, ama ultah si david n ultah bng Putra.. hahha,, sumpah gokil n gilak klean smua y.. tapi sbnerny maaf Winda tuh udah gak terlalu mnikmati prayaan d stu, abisny winda kpikran ama HP, bpak mama Winda pasti dah nelpon,, ,, maksih ea bng frans, bng jhon, debo, anggi, aldo, dawang, k’tami, k’fidey, bng manro, bng exa, bng tian, bng benny, bng Daniel, bng weldy, bng roy, smuanya deh.. maaf Winda gak bs sebutin stu2.. maaf juga ea Winda gak bisa ikut KTB bsok.. huhu

Abis itu, pulang kosan.. eh, listrik mati.. Yah pdhal Winda mo ngerjain proyek.. huhu, Trus udah cape’, Winda pke HP tmen kosan, bneran, Winda d ceramahin dulu ama Bapak, huhu.. Udah udah cape’ Winda dah mo ngeluh, huhu *iblis d sekitar Winda.. hahaha,, oiy,, lilin anak2 PSG berguna bnget d sni.. hahahahaa Ditengah kegalauan, sneng jg c denger abng2 kosan pda nyahut2 dr luar “slamat ulang tahun” gtu.. hehhee,, mksih abng2.. :D

Biar gak stress mikirin HP, Winda mo OL aja deh, wlaupun baterai laptop tggal dikit,, tapi astaganaga,, modem bermasalah pulak lgi.. ckckck *makin stresLah Winda.. Trus sbnernya Winda tuh nggu ucpan dr shabat2 Winda, tapi ampe jam 12 gtu gak ada, Winda udah kcwa euy.. tapi tiba2 d luar ada yg main gitar, nyanyiin lagi selamat ulang tahun.. astaganaga.. Really surprise ama Tuelfa, Sanchez, ma Kristhie (Kristhie udah d kosan Winda sblumny).. apalg ama pacar aq si Tuelfa, dlam waktu instan dia belajar main gitar lagu selamat ulang tahun hanya buat Winda.. terharu bnget euy pdhal sharian gak da ngucapin k Winda.. ama Sanchez jg, yg udah pura2 sharian muka lugu, yg nahan2 Winda, yg mo jemputin Winda yg sbaran ama sikapa Winda yg krg peka ktny hahahha.. Kristhie jg, sharian blom ngucapin k Winda.. huhu, pdhal aq nunggu2.. tapi seneng,, akhirny HP Winda balik,,, yee.. ^^ ,, harusny gak kalian balikin aja, biar HP baru Winda.. hahahaha *juskid.. mksih jg udah ngumpulin tnda tngan pngurus PMK buat Winda.. akh,, Winda terharu.. mksih ea buat pra pngurus semuanya 64 org...luph U all .. :D

Sungguh tak terkatakan sukacitaku hari ni, mngcap syukur buat tmen2 semuanya, temen maen, temen kosan, temen kelas, temen gila, temen se-bidang, temen2 pngurus PMK, n temen2 sma, tmen2 smp, n tmen2 lain yg udah mo ingat ama Winda, yg mo ngerelain pulsany ngrimin sms ultah k Winda, yg udah mo ngririm wall k Winda.. maaf Winda gk bs sebutin satu2 smuanya.. *akhh.. Winda terharu ikh.. Oiy, mksih jg buat abng Winda yg udah baik bngetttt ama Winda,, yg bnlg gak boleh galau n cengeng, akibatny jd ktawak trus.. hahaha mksih buat smuany y bng. :D

Mkasih.. mksih buat semunya, maaf Winda gak bs sebutin satu2, semuanya.. really unforgettable birthday.. :D Thx God..

Tuhan Menegurku

Setelah sekian lama, akhirnya terjadi juga. Tuhan menegurku. Ya Tuhan menegurku. Selama ini semua yang Qpinta, semua yang Qdamba, selalu diberikan Tuhan dengan sempurna, bahkan melebihi segala sesuatu yang pernah Qpikirkan. Dari menjadi juara III Olimpiade Matematika yang diadakan UMPAR waktu kelas IX, Lulus SMP dengan nilai tertinggi se-Ajatappareng, bahkan menempati urutan ke-4 tertinggi se-Sulawesi Selatan,kemudian masuk salah satu SMA favorit dengan hasil tes berada di urutan kedua, Menjadi Juara I debat pada porseni sekolah padahal aQ masih anak kls X, Menempati peringkat pertama pada tiap semester ( baru dari semester I-IV, tapi semoga ampe smester VI. AMIN ). Bahkan yang menjadi sangat berarti bagiku saat Tuhan mengabulkan doaku untuk bisa lolos sampai ke provinsi untuk Olimpiade Sains Nasional (OSN) bid.Matematika tahun 2008 ( sebenarnya aQ kepingin banget buat sampai ke tingkat nasional bahkan low bisa ampe ketingkat Internasional, tapi mengingat aQ masih kelas X, belum banyak materi yang belum Qkuasai).
Tidak hanya itu, pada Olimpiade Matematika se-Ajatappareng, aQ masih bisa keluar sebagai juara I dari kompetisi itu. Kemudian pada tes awal untuk OSNtahun 2009, aQ berhasil menduduki urutan ketiga ( sumpah soalnya susah banget, n pake sistem denda, makanya qt mesti pke strategi ngerjainnya ) dan membuatku berhasil untuk mendapatkan pembinaan khusus dan karantina dari LOPI (Lembaga Pendidikan Olimpiade Indonesia). Menghadapi OSN 2009 ini aQ bener2 belajar lebih giat, tujuanku paling tidak lolos mpe provinsi kayak taon lalulah tapi seharusnya bisa lebih, apalagi udah dibimbing langsung dari tim LOPI. aQ selalu berdoa ma Tuhan semoga memberkatiku, aQ tidak mau mengecewakan tulang Tambunan (pemilik LOPI), pembimbingQ Dr. rer. nat. I Made Sulandra M.Si, orangtuaku, sekolahku, dan yang paling utama aQ ingin memuliakan Tuhan Yesus sekali lagi. Lagipula ini ajang OSN terakhir untukku, karena low udah kls XII nd bisa lg ikut OSN, ajang paling bergengsi bagi para pecinta sains Nasional.

Tak kusangga pada saat tes, ternyata menggunakan sistem denda, namun pengawas mengatakan tidak menggunakan sistem denda, jadi otomatis aQ mengisi saja semua jawabanQ. Hal ini benar2 memukulku dan para peserta OSN bid matematika lainnya. Semua diluar harapan, padahal waktu pembimbingan kami ditargetkan paling tidak 5 orang bakalan mewakili Parepare pada tingkat provinsi, namun masih seperti tahun kemarin Parepare hanya berhasil mengirim 2 peserta untuk bid. Matematika. Hatiku sungguh hancur, apalagi pada awalnya seorang teman memberitahu aQ bahwa aQ lu2s padahal tidak. Ditambah lagi, seorang ade’ kelasku, Tullah, berhasil lo2s dan adeq sendiri, Moniq, ( dy ambil bidang Kimia ) juga berhasil lo2s. Banyangin gw kelas XI dikalahkan oleh anak kelas X. Keadaanq benar2 hancur, ditambah lagi tidak ada seorangpun yang mengerti keadaanq.
Hampir tiap malam aQ menangis gara2 hal ini, aQ bertanya kenapa Tuhan melakukan hal ini padaku?? Selama beberapa bulan, aQ menjadi orang yang tidak punya pengharapan lagi. aQ berdoa, tapi hanya sekedar doa-doa rutinitas yang kosong. Padahal 2 bulan setelah kegagalan ini Tuhan memberiq kesempatan untuk ikut Olimpiade MIPA pada Festifal Pelajar Se-Ajatappareng dan aQ bisa keluar sebagai juara I koq. Namun, aQ masih selalu sedih dan terkadang menyalahkan Tuhan atas peristiwa ini, apalagi seorang temanQ, Fani, berhasil sampai ke Nasional. aQ juga mau Tuhan, aQ mau dibimbing langsung oleh para profesor2, aQ juga pengen bisa bebas tes di beberapa universitas. Karena hal ini, aQ takut untuk bermimpi lagi, aQ takut gagal lagi, aQ berusaha tidak terlalu berharap pada Tuhan.
aQ benar2 jahat. aQ baru tersadar stelah dengar khotbah dari Bu Pendeta. Bu Pendeta bilang, kalau tidak selamanya usaha dan doa kita dikabulkan oleh Tuhan. Tuhan pengen liat apakah disaat paling sekarat kita masih mampu bertahan setia. Adalah hal yang wajar untuk tetap setia karena setiap berkat, tetapi hanya sedikit yang mampu bertahan karena cobaan seperti kisahnya Ayub. Masakan hanya hal2 baik saja yang mw Qtrima, aQ jg harus nerima hal yang buruk juga donk. Memangx aQ siapa, pengen kehendakku yang jadi?? Kehendak Tuhanlah yang jadi. Beribu prestasi telah membutakan mata hatiku. Maafkan aQ Tuhan. Satu hal, Tuhan berfirman kalau Ia tidak pernah merancangkan hal jahat bagi umatnya, semata-mata hanya damai sejahtera. Walaupun gagal, namun itulah yang terbaik untukQ. Perlahan aQ berusaha membangun kembali kepercayaanq, walaupun kadang iblis dalam diriq terus bilang untuk tidak percaya. Sampai suatu hari aQ membaca catatan seorang teman di fb ttg kisah 3 pohon, aQ mau kembali percaya, aQ mau kembali jadi seorang pemimpi, karena aQ mempunyai kepastian yang dijanjikan Tuhan. Terimakasih Tuhan, engkau telah menegurku.
Oiy, buat Tullah, low km baca catatan ini, aQ tidak bermaksud iri ma km (walaupun sebenarnya pastilah ada sedikit rasa iri), kamu sangat layak untuk lo2s. aQ belajar satu hal dari kamu, yaitu sebuah kepercayaan hati. aQ salut ternyata kamu tidak mengisi semua jawabanmu, hanya jawaban yang kau yakini. Sementara kami yang lain, mengisi banyak jawaban dengan harapan mudah2an benar, padahal kami tidak tahu sama sekali. Sejak peristiwa itu, dalam setiap tes yang qikuti mau sistem denda kek ato tidak, aQ tidak akan mengisi suatu jawaban yang tidak qtahu, yang tidak qyakini. Terimakasih buat Tullah.
N buat Stefani juga, Fan… sumpah aQ kagum banget sama kamu. Smua orang yang kaget waktu kamu mutusin milih jurusan ips. Sementara banyak sekali orang yang berharap bisa masuk ipa. Kamu tidak merasa gengsi terhadap ips, kamu memilih berdasarkan hatimu. Dan karena ipslah yang membawamu sampai ke Nasional, mengharumkan Parepare dalam OSN bidang Ekonomi. Tuhan memberkatimu…
Dan terimakasih Tuhan telah menegurq, telah membuatku belajar banyak hal. Terimakasih Tuhan Yesus..

my story 1

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Hi friends….
I want to tell you my experience when I joined OSN(National Sains Olympiad) 2008. In the first, before OSN for the city area was held, all of the student were taught by the teacher consist of what subject they choosed. Actually I didn’t know what subject will I choose cause there are eight subject we can choose for OSN, There are math, physic, chemistry, biology, astronomy, geosains, computer and economic. My math, physic, chemistry, biology, and computer teacher recommend me to choose that Olympiad … I really confused what subject will I choose cause I really like all that subject, moreover I didn’t want to make my teacher disappoint.
But, actually I really like math. I had a confident to take it, but then I was afraid becaused there are ten students join this training, five students from XI grade and five from X grade. For the Olympiad may be only five student would joined it. I almost give up, caused I thought that the students from the XI grade had a big chance to join it. But, I give confident to my self that I can do it. I always pray to God to give me a chance to join this Olympiad although only the fifth candidate from smansha.

Praise to God, When OSN for the city area was held, I can be one of the candidate from smansha. I really happy and grateful to God.. Thanks God!! .. But not only that, when I did the task, the question was too difficult… Honestly I hope I can pass from the city area caused I always dream that one day I can join the International Olympiad. So, I can make my parents, teacher, friends, and Lord Jesus proud on me.
A month after the test, I heard from my teacher in primagama that the announcement of the Olympiad was announced, and he said that I didn’t pass it…When heard that, my heart really broke. I can’t sleep in the night and just cried… I pray to God to give me his strength, caused I really disappoint with this. I tried to believe that there a God plans in every tears which fall out my eyes.
But, you know… the next day my friend give me a congratulation caused I passed the Olympiad. I don’t believe it!! I really surprise… N that’s true!! That I pass this Olympiad… I really grateful to Jesus and I’m felt a big regret because I had a little angry to him… Actually his love was too big for me, that he will never broke his promise… And because of that I always love him…
Every day I managed my time to study for the Olympiad and for the exam in school. Of course I didn’t want to loose any value caused I also want to join PMJK.. But 2 weeks before OSN, I got an accident. I was very sad caused I can’t study well. Morever 3 days after the Olympiad there an exam in the school. I just pray to God to give me his strength. And praised to God I still can join the Olympiad in the province area although I didn’t really recovered. I didn’t hope to much becaused I admit that I had a little prepared, moreover I just had an accident and I also had to managed my time for the exam in the school. But, altought I didn’t pass to the national area, I had a big grateful becaused God’s love really happen in my life. From the school area, city area, until the province area, if not God blessing work on me, may be all would not be a reality. I had proud to my self becaused I’m still in X grade when it happened. I still can try it this year. Morever now I’m in XI grade, so, I have more prepared for the Olympiad. If you read my blog, I hope you give me a pray, so I can make my dream come true. But, if this year I still can’t to prove it, I will not be sad because I have experience this, that not all people can’t feel it. Thanks God for everything… I’ll always love you and will never leave you because you’re my everything…

my story 2

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Hi friend…
Now, I will tell you my story again. The story was about my experience when I join the Mathematic Olympiad that created by the Group of the University Students of UMPAR (Universities Muhammadiyah Parepare) in Parewisata Hotel in 31 November – 1 December 2008.
When my teacher, Mr. H. Yasin, told me that I would be one of the candidate of the team from smansha, I felt really happy because they still give me a chance to prove my skill. I promised that I will do the best for this Olympiad.
But, actually I felt confused because we all knows that the Olympiad test is different with all the subject that we ever got in the school. And, I just have one week to study. Moreover, I also had to managed my time to face the exam in the school and for all the prepared of Christmas in the school, because I was the secretary of this Christmas Party. But, I just give all my problem to God. I believe that He always give a way for His child.
When the Olympiad was held, I really surprised with the rules of this Olympiad. This Olympiad had three season. In the first season, I thought that a team had to work together, but its different in this Olympiad. In the first season, we got a choice test. To pass this season, every student in a team had to competite with the other student in a same team. I really give up caused I had a little chance. My partner is k’Nurmiaty and Muh.Hidayatullah were a good student too. I was angry to the committee of this Olympiad becaused the rules was not deal. But, the committee couldn’t change the rules. Then I just give all to my God. When do the test , I felt very happy because I always see that test. When the committee announced twenty names of the contestant who pass this first season, I really grateful to God because I was in the first rank. Thanks God ! But, actually I felt regret because I had showed a bad attitude with angry to the committee. I had showed that I’m the best in this season, but I can’t showed that I had a good attitude. I was too emotion and I can’t control it. I had studied hard for this Olympiad. Please forgive me God.

Then in the second season, I felt a little afraid because I don’t had a friend, only me the candidate from smansha. Moreover, there was no teacher accompany me in this Olympiad. But, I tried to be confident and give all to God. In this season we had to do a test with role from one jury table to another jury table in a 5 minutes. Praise to God in this season I also can be in the first rank from six student. The student who passed this season, got a facility from the hotel, that we can stayed for one night in this hotel. Moreover in 9 p.m there was technical meeting about the third season for tomorrow. But, I didn’t spend my night in the hotel because my parents were out of city and there no one would keep my brothers and sister. So, after arrived at home at 6.30 p.m, in 8.30 p.m I backed to hotel.
When the committee explained the rules of the third season, I really confused. The third season was spilt in to three season again. In the first season, we had to explain a test in front of the jury for about ten minutes with OHP. Oh my God!!! I didn’t know how to use it. Then in the second season called see a clue season. In this season, committee would give us a clue about mathematic and we had to answer it. I also confused with this season because I didn’t know all the scientist and all their theory in mathematic. And the last season was a smart and accurate season.
After the technical meeting end, I directly went to internet café to find information about the scientist and their theory. Actually, I felt afraid caused I was alone girl in the dark night. But, I always back to Jesus who always give me His power. I arrived home about 10.30 p.m. Then, I couldn’t study again because all my power was disappear.
In the morning after. The third season held. I felt very sad for this Olympiad because there’s no my friend, my parents, even my teacher accompanied me. When all the candidate discuss with their teacher, I was alone. But, I always tried to be strong because I never alone. My God always be with me and accompany me forever. In the first season actually mt teacher Mr. H.Yasin came, but before my turn end, he backed. In this season, I was relief because I was the last candidate to represent a test. Before my turn, I really afraid caused from 5 candidate who perform before me, only two candidate could represented their test, and their test was not finish. Before my turn, I prayed to God to give me a way to do that test. In my turn, Oh my God!!! The test is difficult, but I just tried to do that and reprented it in front of the jury with OHP. Actually, there no difficult to used it. When the committee announced the result, I really surprised because my value was the most high. Thanks God….
Then in see a clue season, in the first question I answer, my value was loss because my answer was wrong. It made me a little afraid and more careful to answer. In this season, I just in the second place. But, it not make me give up. In the third season, I was fight with rely on God power and all the best for me. Praised to God, I could be in the first place.
Then we were took a rest. While waiting for the announced, we all the candidate, interacted each other. I felt very happy because I got many new friends again, and they not an ordinary friend. They were a great friend for me. When the committee had finished to calculated all the value in the third season, they announced the result. And a lot of praised to God, that I can be the winner of this Olympiad. Thanks God.. I know, with you I can do everything impossible… Thanks God.
Oiy.. Here I show you the all the champions named :
I. Winda Sri Warnita Simangunsong ( SMAN.1 PAREPARE)
II. Rezky (SMAN.1 BARRU)
III. Irfan ( SMAN.1 PANGSID)
IV. Masyuri Permedi (SMAN.5 PAREPARE)
V. Fahrul Islam (SMAN.3 PAREPARE)
VI. Rahmat (SMAN.2 PAREPARE)

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Hay hay hay…. Welcome to my story again. I hope you didn’t bore to red it again. Now I would like to tell you my story when I join the test for National Olympiad Training. It’s a hard test for me becaused if I couldn’t pass this test, my dream to join the National Mathematic Olympiad for this year would dissapper. Moreover, automaticly I would be ashamed if I couldn’t pass it becaused last year I can passed until the provincial area and I just won the Mathematic Olympiad that made by UMPAR. The test held in 6 December 2008. Not only students join his test all of the teacher also join this test. The test for the teacher was on 5 December 2008.
Actually, in 5 December, we all the chirstian students in Parepare made a Chirstmas Party, and for you know I was the secretary for this even. But, becaused of the Olympiad in Parewisata Hotel , this olympiad test and for all the exam in school, I didn’t follow many meeting, even the prepared on 5 December afternoon. I really regret for this. I wasn’t a responsible people, and I didn’t know why I could do this? Why I couldn’t give my little time for Jesus after all His bless on me? After all His love for me? I didn’t know why I could be a bad people… When the Chirstmas party held, I just cried in my chair. I just pray to God to forgive me. I felt many mistakes. I remember the Chirstmas party last year, I remember my spirit in the first meeting for this chirstmas. But, when all the committee perform in the stage,

I just still in my chair. With all of my regret. But, I praised to God because the party held succesfully, even more than I thought before. Forgive me God…
The day after when the test held, I felt a little afraid because only me the student from smansha would test in SMAN.5 PAREPARE. Most of my friend test in SMAN.4, SMA PGRI, or SMPN.10. When in smaeli, I felt happy becaused I met with all my senior from smaeli who joined the OSN last year. I also met with my friends there. When do the test, Oh my God!!! The test was too dificult, and our test was a same test for the teacher. I felt really give up. I want to cry in the test room. I really sad because I thought that this a God punishment for me because I was too egoist. I just still in my chair. With all of my regret. But, I praised to God because the party held succesfully, even more than I thought before. Forgive me God…
The day after when the test held, I felt a little afraid because only me the student from smansha would test in SMAN.5 PAREPARE. Most of my friend test in SMAN.4, SMA PGRI, or SMPN.10. When in smaeli, I felt happy becaused I met with all my senior from smaeli who joined the OSN last year. I also met with my friends there. When do the test, Oh my God!!! The test was too dificult, and our test was a same test for the teacher. I felt really give up. I want to cry in the test room. I really sad because I thought that this a God punishment for me because I was too egoist.

When the test end, I backed home and almost lost because actually I seldom through this way. But, praised to God, I could arrived at home. In home, I just cried and pray. I asked the wisdom from God, to see the positive side of this even. May be, its not my way to join OSN again. To believe that there will be the other thing I don’t know what, that God prepared for me. I was hopeless because I now that there no a chance for me again because I had made a mistake to God. Moreover, a month later my friends in smaeli, told me that I didn’t pass this olympiad.
But, when I was in hopeless, God gave me His power. I didn’t believe that I passed this test and I was in the third place. WOW! I really surprised. A lot of thanks for God, that He never leave me although I leave him, although I forgot him. His bless always real in my life whatever my condition, whatever, whenever, and wherever I am. Thanks God for everything. I promised that I will not dissapoint You again, That I will always do the best for You. Thanks for all Your real Love for me…