Selasa, 13 November 2012

labil love story :D

Hmmm.. my love story with Him started when I was in Junior High School. How come it be? When I was in elementary school I was (not wanna be arrogant yea ^^) a smart student. I always be a candidate if there were a competition. But then, suddenly when the Fire Country attacked, everything change.. buahahaha

My junior high school was the best school in my city, my class also the best (in Indonesia they say it “Kelas Unggulan”). So you can guess it that every student in my class is the best student. It made have a tight competition. I never became the best 5 in my class, this made me very sad. But I never give up, I hope that someday I can be the number one. I always try and try and try, beside that I give all my dreams to God, I depended on Him. I prayed every night, I read bible everyday, I praised him everytime, I went to the church, and be a nice girl. I couldn’t get the best rank in my class, but praised to God, finally my score can be the best score for the National Exam, not only in my school, but also in my city. Three years walked with Him is the most beautiful moment in my life. As Psalms 126 : 5 said “They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.”

Then in the Senior High School, everything’s good. I always had a good score in class n joined a lot of champion and also become the winner (some of them only.. ahahahha). Everything fine till the graduated time. I couldn’t passed my favorite college that I’d dreams for so many time. I trapped in the college that I’ve never know. I were very dissapointed to God, everything seems cold, I even didn’t have a spirit to live.

But then, I thank to God that he gave me a good partnership here. I can learn so many things about Him through daily devotion, bible study, and also small group. First year here, I have a good relation with God. I walked with Him everyday, praised Him, prayed to Him, talked to Him, and do everything with Him. We’re such a romantic couple, always together everywhere and everytime (suit... suit.. :D ).

Moreover I have so many friends that always support me when I almost fall and also a good enviroment. But then in second years, when everything seems blurred and unclear about my future after graduated because of so many hazy rule, I felt very sad. It affected my spirit  to have a good relation with Him, my study, my social intercourse, even my whole live (lebayyyyy).

Thanks to God, I have my small group, I have my friends, my parents and also my boyfriends (xixixixi) that always support me, that always remind me. I believe everything will be alright with God, no matter what will happen I will trust and obey Him. And I will wait upon the LORD, that hideth his face from the house of Jacob, and I will look for Him (Yes 8:17). Because Yes 40:31 said “But those who trust the LORD will find new strength. They will be strong like eagles soaring upward on wings; they will walk and run without getting tired”.

Yeah, my love story such a labil story. Fall and then rise, fall again and rise again, fall and rise, fall and rise untill I’m tired. Although I have read all the bible or I have finished two books for bible study or I have a good small group or I am a servant of God or I am a princess of God or X or Y or Z etc. Thats not guarantee that I will always have an easy live or having a dicipline relation with Him. I am still a sinner.  But Philip 3:12 said “I have not yet reached my goal, and I am not perfect. But Christ has taken hold of me. So I keep on running and struggling to take hold of the prize”

Yeah, So I will  keep on running and struggling to take hold of the prize q(^.^)p

by @littlewinda

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