pamer foto akh.. hahahha

Father

Jantung Zefanya seakan mau copot ketika ia mendengar berita itu. Sungguh tidak menyangka sosok ayah yang selama ini dikenalnya begitu terhormat, disiplin dan berwibawa memiliki masa lalu yang begitu kelam. Ternyata ada begitu banyak hal yang disembunyikan darinya. Berjuta rasa timbul ketika satu per satu fakta disodorkan kepanya. Keingintahuan akan bagaimana fakta sebenarnya seakan muncul menjadi suatu luapan emosi yang tak tertahankan. Namun, tiba-tiba ia terfikir, Semua orang pernah melakukan kesalahan karena semua manusia berdosa (roma 3:23), begitu juga sang ayah. Tidak ada manusia yang sempurna, karena sesungguhnya kita adalah debu.

Ingatan akan ayahnya mulai muncul satu per satu,, teringat waktu kecil dulu, ayahnya selalu marah kalau ia tidak belajar. Bahkan walaupun sang ayah sudah di kantor buat jaga malam, tapi kalau dia belum mengajar zefanya hari itu, dia akan pulang ke rumah dulu untuk mengajar. Tak lupa pula setiap belajar, pasti tersedia rotan ataupun ikat pinggang di tangan sang ayah terutama waktu dia belajar membaca, tiap ada salah baca pasti kena pukul. Ayahnya selalu mengatakan “TIDAK BOLEH BODOH”, oleh karena itu Zefanya selalu berusaha agar tidak kena pukul.

Ia ingat lazimnya anak-anak yang lain ia juga sering bertengkar dengan saudara mereka. Zefanya ingat kalau ia dan adeknya bertengkar, dan ayahnya sudah turun tangan, pokoknya tidak ada yang salah dan tidak ada yang benar, keduanya pasti kena marah. Yang akan selalu dalam ingatan adalah ketika ia dan adeknya di masukkan ke dalam gudang selama beberapa jam karena bertengkar terus. Ayah selalu bilang saudara harus saling menyayangi.

Zefanya ingat ayahnya selalu setia jadi tukang ojek, mengantar jemputnya tiap hari ke sekolah. Kalau sang ayah telat 5 menit saja, Zefanya langsung menangis dan marah-marah pada sang ayah, padahal sang ayah datang terlambat karena tugas dan tuntutan profesi. Sang ayah selalu berkata menunggu membuatmu menjadi orang yang sabar.

Tiap penerimaan rapor, ranking satu nyaris tak pernah lepas dari tangan Zefanya ketika SD. Sang ayah pasti selalu senang, namun tidak begitu dengan Zefanya. Zefanya iri melihat teman-temannya yang baru ranking 2 dan 3 saja pasti dapat hadiah dari orangtuanya, tapi Zefanya tidak. Sang aja selalu berkata, Jangan bekerja untuk mendapatkan sebuah hadiah.

Sang ayah selalu mengajarkan kedisiplinan. Barang-barang tidak boleh pindah dari tempatnya, kalau dia butuh sesuatu harus lagssung ada dihadapannya. Kalau tidak ada, tunggulah sang ayah akan berkoar-koar untuk waktu yang lama. Sang ayah juga menerapkan waktu makan, waktu tidur, waktu belajar, waktu nonton dan waktu bermain buat Zefanya. Hal yang selalu jadi waktu mengerikan di rumah adalah waktu pagi, pkoknya ketika sudah waktunya untuk ke sekolah harus ke sekolah, siap ataupun tidak siap.

Beranjak SMP, saingan yang dihadapi Zefanya bertambah banyak, Ia tidak seperti dahulu lgi yang bisa mengantongi ranking satu tiap semesternya. Tiap penerimaan rapor rasanya jantungnya mau copot, takut kalau-kalau sang ayah marah. Tapi ternyata tidak, sang ayah malah semakin mensupport Zefanya, N mengingatkannya Jangan bekerja untuk mendapatkan hadiah, tapi yang terpenting kamu sudah berusaha.

Mungkin memang bapak Zefanya adalah orang yang kasar tapi dari situLah iya belajar bahwa kehidupan tdk seperti dongeng. Dan setelah besar ia menyadari, memang kehidupan ini sulit. Entah bagaimana masa lalu bapak, Zefanya gak peduli.. Satu hal yang ia tau ada sang aja mencintainy, dan begitulah cara sang ayah mencintainya.. Cinta bukan selalu ditampakkan dalam hal-hal romantis, namun juga hal-hal yang tegas bahkan kasar. Dan Zefanya mencintainy ayahnya 

As Long As You Love Me ^.^

Tau gak, kau nyebelin banget!!!
Bisa gak sih membiarkanku sendiri saja??
bisa gak percaya saja padaku??
Bisa gak tidak ikut campur urusanku??
bisa tidak terus menghinaku??!!!

Kenapa hidup ini selalu rumit bagimu??
Kenapa selalu menganggap hal di dunia ini jahat??
Kenapa tidak melihat sisi baik saja??
Mengapa mengambil jalan berliku jika ada jalan lurus??

Bicara baik-baik saja dan aku akan mengerti
Tak perlu kasar, tak perlu membuat dunia gempar
Tak perlu curiga, tak perlu berprasangka negatif
Percaya padaku, aku sudah siap terbang

Tapi baru kusadari, kita tidak tahu kapan datangny badai itu
Dan kenyataan memanghidup ini jahat
Dunia ini bobrok, hancur

Aku kanak-kanak, semua baik-baik saja
Tak tahu keadaan diluar, karena kau membuat semua kelihatan baik-baik saja
Saat aku harus beranjak dewasa, saat pengetahuanku bertambah
Saat aku merasa bisa melakukan semua
Tapi ternyata tidak,, terlalu bahaya
Dan kau hanya ingin menjagaku

Maaf, karena mungkin aku merasa diri pintar, merasa dewasa, merasa kuat
Hanya saja tolong jaga perasaanku,
Tak perlu suara yang menggemparkan dunia
Tak perlu kata yang mengiris hati
Tak perlu tangan atau kaki yang bergerak

Above all,, I love u..
Thanks for keeping me, thingking of me, pray for me
No one perfect
I’ll always try to understand this the way you LOVE me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

a little prayer

Dear Lord,
I pray for a man
That will be a part of my life
A man that really loves You more than everything
A man that will take me in the second place of his heart
A man that will live not for himself but for You

Face and physical are not important…
The most important is
I want a heart that really loves and thirsty of You
And he must know for whom and for what he lives
So his life is not useless…

Someone that has a wise heart, not only smart brain
A man that not only loves me, but also respect me
A man that not only can adore me, but can warn me when I am wrong
A man that loves me not from my smooth levels but from my heart
A man can be my best friend in any time and situation
A man that makes me feel a woman when I am beside him…

I am not asking a perfect he
But ask for an important he
So I can make he perfect in Your eyes
A man that needs my support for their strength
A man that needs my prayer for his life
A man that needs my smile to cover his sadness
A man that needs my love so he could feel love
A man that needs me to make his life

And I also ask
Make me woman that can make him proud
Give me a heart that really love You
So I could love him with Your love,
Not love him with my love
Give me Your gentle spirit,
So my personality doesn’t come from my outside
But come from You
Give me Your hands,
That I always be able to pray for him
Give me Your eyes,
So I could many good things in him, not the bad ones
Give me Your mouth,
That is filled with Your words of wisdom and encourage
So I could support him everyday
Give me Your lips,
And I will smile at the every time

And I want that when we finally meet
Both of us can say
How great Thou art
Thank you give me someone that can make my life perfect
I know that You want us to meet at the right time…
Amen.

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Pegawai Negeri Kerajaan Allah

KK 7 April 2011,, Pegawai Negeri Kerajaan Allah
Pas aq tahu tema KK nya kmaren ini aq pkir pasti bakalan ngebosenin dah.. Palagi kayaknya masih ada hbungan ma tema minggu lalu “Integrasi iman dan ilmu” yang mnurutq ngeboseninnnn bnget.. Sempat ada setan kecil di hati yg membisikkan “gak usah pergi win,, ngapain mending di kosan, ngerjain tugas” hoho… Tapi aq ingatLah sm anak2 danusq, gak tegaLah aq ninggalin mreka tnp supervisi,, hiks.. hiks.. Slain itu emank udah janjian c sm inang2 efa, chez, n kris (hmm,, udah lma kmi gk breng2 lgi krn smua ksibkan n tgas msing2.. -.-

Hmm,, tp pas udah mlai talkshownya,, buju byuset baru perkeenalan pembicara udah terheran2 aq.. Pembicarany Pak Jhonny Sinaga ama Bu Astilda *aq lupa boru apa.. hahaha.. Byuset dah keren2lah,, baca CV mreka aj udah gmna aq.. Tapi yg q ingat ajaLah y,, Pak Jhonny tuh d kpala bagian keuangan d Kementrian luar negeri N bu astilda tuh d BPK…

Awalnya yg mlai khotbah tuh pak Jhonny.. gila,,, sumpah,, klo d bilang boleh aq jatuh cinta, jatuh cintaLah aq ama bapak itu,,, hahahaha.. Dia crita low dy wkt SD sllu jd yg trakhir bhkan terancam gk naik klas dlu.. Tp dy mw brusaha bwt gak jd org bodoh.. ALhasil slnjutny dy bs jadi d number 1 trus deh.. Dia masuk k STAN, tp bru staon, dia D.O… pasti sedih x Lah bpak itu.. tp dia mngakui c, klo dia emank salah.. biasaLah org batak, masih suka main kartu bgadang ngobrol gak jelas ampe tengah mlem,, klo perlu mpe subuh.. hoho *peaceLah amang2 yg baca..  Qrasa skit x lah pasti bpak itu,, tp dy gak nyerah koq.. wlaupun bkan d STAN lgi d hukum UI.. ternyata d snaLah ia boleh broleh hdup baru.. Toh akhirnya ntah gmana jalan Tuhan itu, bpak itu kerjaannya gak jauh2 dr keuangan koq.. Aq kagum dnger crita dy low dy bxk nerima tawaran amplop gtu tp gk d ambilny,, rasanya pasti iman itu brat x d pertahankn, apalg kemenleu,, mainannya dollar boo, bukan rupiah.. tapi salut bapak itu mw ttp jaga iman. Dia gk mw nerima yg bukan hak dia, pkoknya cman gaji pkok ama tunjangan aja sumber penghasilan dy gak ada bleh dr amplop2 lain alasannya adalah tiap hasil yg ia trima khan ntinya buat persepuluhan aman Tuhan, gak mgkin donk ngasih uang haram buat Tuhan…

Yang buat aq salut adalah, alhasil pasti banyak org yg benci ma bapak itu.. tp Dia blg gk peduli, toh Tuhan jg yg nilai qt.. kata bapak itu, do d best aja, ttp berusaha jdi yg t’baik, pasti qt bakalan d butuhin org koq krn kualitas kerja qt.. Yah mugkin bakalan lama qt d promosiin tapi itu gak penting.. yang penting adalah qt udah melakukan yg terbaik dr qt n sesuai dengan printahNya,, soal upah.. percaya aja upah d surga itu lbih nyummy d banding yg dunia tawarkan.. Tapi seperti selama ini aq imani c, Tuhan psti sllu mrancangkan yg t’baik koq bwt qt ssuai dgn talenta yg ia berikan… Keep believe Yer 29:11 n do Maz 37:3-7.. Aq kagumLah sm bapak itu walaupun jabatannya udah gmn gitu, tp dy masih sring naik angkutan umum bwt k kantor.. itu jg c yg penting dr smuany, a humble heart..  Huahh,, kuerenLah.. ~.~

Soal bu astilda jg gak beda2 jauh ama pak Jhonny,, sebagai auditor tauLah bagaimana tantangannya, tapi dia ttp jaga integritas.. Dia juga seorang ibu rumah tangga yg baik, yang paling aku kagumi adalah dia sangat percaya akan kuasa doa seorang wanita,istri, dan ibu, ituLah yg menjadikan ia kuat… kuerenLah.. *.*

Dari mereka aku boleh tau tantangan di dunia kerja nanti akan sangat berat.. Integritas N iman benar2 harus d pertahankan.. Walaupun menjaganya membuat kita menjadi seekor domba di tengah2 serigala, tapi tenangLah, qt punya satu gembala yg tak perlu lagi diragukan.. :D can’t wait to be an employee of God Kingdom ~_~

Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri 1432H

Ketika DIFERENSIAL tak bisa menurunkan keangkuhan kita
Ketika ALJABAR tak bisa menjabarkan perbuatan kita
Ketika LOGIKA tidak sanggup menalarkan lisan jelek kita
Ketika TRIGONOMETRI tak bisa menjangkau sudut-sudut prasangka buruk
Mari SUBTITUSI semua VARIABEL dosa yang telah terREFLEKSI dalam diri
dengan niat permohonan maaf sehingga terEKUIVALEN kefitrian kita dalam AKAR-AKAR POSITIF

Selamat hari Idul Fitri 1432H
Mohon maaf lahir batin :)
Winda Sri Warnita Simangunsong and fam :D

Gratification

Gratification. I believe that almost all of Indonesian people often heard about this word. We often heard this word in newspaper, television, and other public media services that many Indonesian people always get many information from. But do you know what is the meaning of this word? Maybe you think that this is not a serious problem and doesn’t break the rule. This is just an ordinary thing which doesn’t seem to have some serious effects. Whereas if we observe further about this problem, we will realize that this problem will make our country get so many disadvantages.

Before we describe much more about this kind of problem, first thing we have to do is understanding the meaning of gratification itself. Gratification is a gift given by someone because of hidden interest. This kind of gratification can be shown in many forms. The examples are giving some luxurious things, much money, and et cetera. There are many various motives or reason of why some people do this thing which violate the rule that has been set by the government to create much cleaner working environment and its attitude.

One of the reasons we can explain why people gratify their bosses is to earn a high carrier because of the good image they seem to show. By giving some gifts or money to their bosses, they can automatically be the golden employer; hence, they will get the higher position in their office much faster than any other workers. Another reason is to make a case solved faster by bribing the police, judges, and another law apparatus that have important role in the process of solving a case. And the newest reason that appears to be revealed by the police is the tax pending payment that was done by some great business company in this country.

Well, we will explain more about some gratification in the real birocration that happened in our society. The newest case that has been revealed is about Gayus Tambunan’s case.This case began with three suspections for Gayus Tambunan.These are corruption, money laundring and money embazzling,but finally from those three suspections, just one of them that can be proven by the police, meanwhile the other judgement can’t be proven well.Slowly,the truth can be revealed.Gayus Tambunan’s case not only involved himself, because apparently there were so many people that is included in his case.The people that is included in this case come from various Indonesia’ institution. They are from police institution,law institution and bussinessmen. This case became so popular and emerged in many public media, such as in television, radio, newspaper and etc.Everyday Indonesian people served by this embarassing news.Almost all of Indonesian people know about this case.Everybody knows about Gayus.Everybody knows about the bad culture that happened in “Direktorat Jenderal Pajak”.This bad attitude of Gayus not only violate the good image of Gayus himself, but also his graduate,State College of Accounting.Most of people think that State Colllege of Accounting just able to create graduate who have corruption mental and habit.Whereas, many STAN graduate that have good carrier and working in normal way (without corruption), but they also feel the effect. And the other institution that get worst image is Direktorat Jenderal Pajak.

Another booming case which is broke our birocracy is tax pending payment which is done by some big bussiness companies.One of the example is Aburizal Bakrie’s case.Do you know about that?Recently, it has been known that some of Bakrie’s company didn’t pay their tax well. They often postponed their obligation in paying their tax. Because of that, by the time this case is revealed apparently the accumulation of their tax obligation saved in big amount.the nominal is approximately 1 triliun rupiahs.

But gratification is not only happened in the great company or in the ministry. It might happen also in the even the lowest element of the governement like RT. When we are going to make Kartu Tanda Penduduk (KTP) for instance. If we want to get it faster, we could pay more to the officer if we do not want to wait any longer.

Grafitication actually happened because of the moral crisis Indonesia suffered. We don’t want Indonesia is being known by it’s corruption or something. We want this beloved country could make some steps ahead to make this country better. That’s why from now on we are as the youngster should keep or even gain our integrity. And firstly first, we have to start this from ourselves like always try to be honest anytime and anywhere. We are as the collegian, the student, the agent of change in this country should start this first.

So, from the explanations that we’ve had above, we absolutely think that gratification is not such a good thing to do, especially for the future birocrate leader like us. We are told to obey to our leaders and respect them as we should be. Gratification is like a humiliation to us, as if we don’t respect anyone who leads us. When we enter the working world after graduating from college, we will start from the most bottom of the carrier ladder. We also think that gratification doesn’t reflect us as the anti-corruption and nepotism generation. If we do that when we enter the working place, all the lessons we had learnt from elementary school, middle school, high school will go to waste. We had wasted all the years and all the things we need to study well.

We hope, as the next generation to fill in the birocracy, we must fight against gratification and its forms, whatever the condition will be, and whatever comes to our life. We must prove that we are the best and the bright generation, and we are ready to fight against gratification, not only by words, but also by attitudes.